I sometimes wonder if my want of writing this blog is somehow subconsciously connected to my inability to create life within myself. Though, I should give myself more credit, my body is filled with mitochondria, bacteria, and countless other life forms, but no matter how hard I try, I can not be a mother. I am not sure if I am indifferent towards this or jealous, but in the end I have an immense gratitude towards mothers. Without them, I wouldn’t exist! All my favorite people wouldn’t exist! It would be pretty horrible. That being said, for the most part, women become mothers voluntarily, so it is not like it is necessary some sort of grand sacrifice that people have to suffer for my sake in order for the human race to continue, but I appreciate mothers all the same.
My appreciation for mothers most certainly comes from my own mother, who had to deal with me as a child. To be honest, I was not an easy child to deal with. I didn’t even talk until I was about 5, which I used to joke that made me half as smart as Albert Einstein (Einstein didn’t talk until he was about 9), but I stopped that joke once someone informed me that would mean my IQ would be about 90 (still trying to rework that joke somehow). Anyway, my mother dealing with me as a child and still being kind and considerate is one of the big reasons I am a functioning adult today. While all mothers may not have to deal with children like I was, there is at least an opportunity for mothers to care and bring children up in a way that helps the world.
Perhaps because of that sort of opportunity that mothers have been both praised and condemned in various stories and media. I figure that these good and bad mothers alike represent both peoples ideal and fears of mothers, and not really what mother hood is all about. I am not sure if I am really qualified to say what is at the heart of motherhood is from personal experience, but I can say that no matter what the blood relation, age, or even gender, the care and love a mother can bring is something everyone can aspire to.
So, thank you all mothers, no matter the circumstance: birth, adoption, or maybe even just taking care of a child for a while. Children may be the future, but mothers are a big part of making sure that future is going to be a worthwhile one.
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